当我们长大了，快乐也会随之而少！
不是不懂得怎样过得快乐些，而是烦恼掩盖了我们的快乐！
忙碌的生活几乎让我透不过气。
同时压力也跟随而来！！
但我能和谁述说呢？

在这个现实的社会里，必须懂得如何生存！
假面具是我们必须懂得戴上的物品。
我讨厌虚伪的人但不知不觉中我必须变得更虚伪！
我害怕我会迷失~~~

长大了，疑心变重了！
开始不懂得谁是值得被我信任的！
始终朋友是没有一辈子的。。
但很幸运的是我拥有数位死党！！ =）

可是，
大家的友情是否真的可以维持到长久呢？
大家已习惯各忙各的，之间少了联络，少了关心，甚至少了以前的那种友好感情！
我的死党们长大了，不再需要我的照顾！
或许是时候开始学习重色轻友了！！！

有时会觉得亏欠了男友，真的亏欠了很多！
每次吵架过后，会发现他所说的并没错，而且是我必须去反省的！
我真的忽略了他！！！
我，顿时明白他的感受。=（
我，对不起，他！

爱情就像颗定时炸弹，
我们不知道它会几时爆炸，
但一旦爆炸就无法回头了！！
我的爱情是否不会爆炸呢？

有人问我，如何可以维持一段那么长久的关系？
很不好意思的是我不懂得回答！
或许是我幸运吧！
因为我发现我爱得一塌糊涂。
我爱他，可是我并没有尽我全心去爱他！
我的心必须还要装下家人与朋友。

心，该要重新整理了！
或许有些人和事该从我的心搬离了！
偶尔回想下就够了！

很多事都在等着我去克服，
我必须坚强地面对！
斗心会回来的。=）

学习不要太在意，
学习不要比较，
学会什么是本分，
学会什么是虚伪，
学会适应！

我，一定可以做到我要的！

。。。

最近我的心情都不怎么好。
欢笑的背后总是背负着沉重的压力和不顺心的事情！
我现在应该要的是什么？？
总觉得自己所做的一切都不能如我所愿。
是我不够努力还是我还搞不懂自己要的是什么？？
我知道我不能再浪费时间去想无谓的事了。
可是我的思想几乎到达了尽头，完全卡住了！

最近的我变得很消极很悲观很不快乐！=（
接踵而来的事情几乎快让我崩溃了。
但我能与谁诉说呢？

突然间，好像觉得明明关系很密切的两人走到了很陌生的边界！
少见面真的会导致感情变淡了吗？
我发现我付出了太多，是时候爱自己了。
有时会想单身应该不错吧？
但到最后我总是不舍得他！
毕竟五年了，双方都习惯了大家，只是感觉上还是差了某些东西！
我找不到答案。。。
有时候，我真的很想大哭一场，可惜眼泪好像不受我控制，干了！
他粗心，不懂得体贴，可是我的心情总是被他牵动着！

承诺，曾经我很重视。
长大了，开始明白承诺也不过如此。
它，只是点缀了一段美丽的爱情。
它，只是一个回忆。
曾经渴望过，相信过，但几乎它未曾实现过！
我不需要了！！！

我相信爱情的美丽，
所以我学会不放弃。
我需要爱情中的自由，
所以偶尔会孤单！

他会是我美丽的爱情吗？

他的出现，
改变了我的人生，
改变了我的观点，
改变了我的脾气，
他把我统统彻底的改变了！！！

最后，
我屈服了！

Happy 4th Year Anniversary Day

Firstly, i am here to wish my loveliest bii
" Happy 4th year Anniversary Day"


I love him *

We have been went through so many things in this 4 years.
Sadness, Argument and Happiness accompanied us to pass through everything in this 4years!
Although he is not the most perfect guy..
but i can feel the love from him always.
I like the way we love each other.
I used to be with him as i always did.

Although tonight we dun have any special celebration.
but it's really enough for me even just a dinner with him later.
At least, we can passing our lovely and memorable day together! =)


We have the same eye bag. =(

Last but no least,
I Love You Gan Chung Kit =)

July

Time past so fast.
We already past the half year of 2009.
What i have done in this half year??
I think i done NOTHING. =(
Day by day..
i realized that i dun have so much time to spend already.

Finally turn to July.
I am the July baby who dun really love July.
Is it July is a good month to everyone??
This year I will celebrate with bunch of my friends at Poppy.
Will it be wonderful?
Will it be happy ending?
Phew... I got no mood for party at all.
Something happened caused me not really happy nowadays.
Feel get anger easily. Moody is my mode.
Feel like to cry but i got no tears to drop.
I wondering why became like this??
What a sad month for me?? =*(

Last night i did chatted with my best friend miiu.
We talked a lots and laughed a lots.
I feel better after talked to her.
Sometimes i just want someone to talk to me.
Even though We just had a simple and happy chat time last night.
No gossip. Just about our Mr. Ex and friends.
I realized that i lost contact with miiu such a long time.
Luckily we still have many topics to talk. =)

Lacks of sleep recently.
Finally i found back my feelings on him.
Luckily it was just temporary.
I felt that i got less time to stay with him already.
Have to manage my time again.
I must stick with him always to avoid my feelings get lost. =)

I choose taking the advise from miiu.
I will keep my mood happily during my birthday.
I will control it well.
I will always consider fun is a must for that day.

I get lost this few day.
But now I, still am I!!!
Decided to be happy.
Decided to forget it.
Decided to become a confident and sexy lady of my friends =P

Have to stop here.
Good night world~~

*what i learn is pretending!

爱的感觉仿佛不见了。。。
是我多心？是我想太多了吗？
心情很复杂。
原来爱一个人是不容易的！
我懂了，终于懂了！
没有什么是永恒的。
曾经拥有比天长地久来得更好！
学习放下，学习祝福。
学会顺其自然！

感觉可以回来吗？
我相信可以=）
I need love so much right now.*

A Complicated Day!!

Today i din go for work due to i over slept at this morning!! =P
Plan to go in to office after half day time but end up i was absent today!!
Since i did not go in to office at this morning so yea i went to had my brunch with my dearest girlfriend miiu.
We went to the Modern De Cafe which located at Kepong.
We met up with bffr and her JC.
Suppose to go in to office after that
but who knows i received a call from my loveliest boyfriend bii.
He told me that he is not feeling well and requested me to accompany him.
You know la.. i very sayang him mah..
So.. i just choose to absent today and rushing back to rawang to take care of him!!!
Why i so concern and care him so much??!!
Just because of he get the symptom of HA1N1.
He get bad headache and feel like to vomit.
But luckily he was fine now =)
Yea.
So do take a good care of yourself and your family.
I did mention with my bffr today that actually i have a meeting with all the company staff at 4pm today.
Actually i feel curious about what purpose of this meeting but end up i knew it from my colleague.
This is the one thing that made me feel so happy today!!
Instead of meeting actually should be said is a gathering.
A gathering to announce the Top 3 Charming, Cheerful and hardworking Staff.
So surprising me that i am the one of those Top 3. =)
But.......
I ABSENT TODAY!!!
Oh my gosh..
timing are definately wrong la..
Once i get this Top 3 but i absent today!!!
What a Complicated day for me. lolx
My mum are rushing me now.
I have to stop here.
p/s: wishing my bii will get well soon
*Love*

Happy Labour Day

Finally i have free time to update my blog here!
Actually nothing to blog recently..
I still passing my daily schedule as usual..
Busy on my work..
Spent my most time to my loveliest Boyfriend!
Managed my time for my beloved girl friends!
I know..my life is BORING!!!
But who care??!!! =)

Today is a Public Holiday.
Everyone are going out to have fun with their friends and the loved one!
I guess I am the only one who sitting in front of the lappie here to update my blog =.=
My life is so boring huh??

NoNoNo..
A BIG NO to me.
I wont waste my public holiday for only stay at home!!! lolx
Actually i am waiting for my boyfriend to bring me out!!
Where to go??!!!
I have no idea.
Maybe just catch a movie or just go to walk around??

Oh ya..
I went to do some little shopping with my sister just now.
We went to Aurora Boutique which located at Damansara Perdana.
I like this Boutique so much because their services are so good.
So feel free to pay them a visit..(=

I have to ciao now..
My boyfriend are waiting for me.
Will be update soon!!!

Happy LABOUR Day!!